What does that mean. Hopefully it means we will receive a telephone call from our adoption agency any day advising us that we have been matched with a little boy. This experience has truly been a mental roller coaster for me. I can’t recall how many times I read that phrase on someone's blog who was waiting on a referral and thought to myself, that won’t be me. Well it is me, I’m anxious and I’m tired of waiting! Can I just skip to the front of the line, please? I feel selfish for having those feeling. I know it will happen, why am I rushing this, why am I stressing? I have come to love a child that I have not seen. I want to see him, I want to smell him, I want to touch him, and I want him to know how much love our family has for him. Mommy and daddy loves you, Jordan.